Some people might collapse from doing too much, some people on the other hand falls to having nothing to do. It's nearing to the day that school reopen and I'm getting restless at home with nothing interesting to occupy my mind.

I feel tired when I look at my computer. I feel like sleeping when I think of shows and manga. I feel most tired when I thought of what had happened, what's happening and what will happen/what might happen.

I feel tired from thinking so much, yet I can't help not thinking about it. Too much stuffs are happening around me right now and too much had happened in the past year.

Now that year 2 at SP is going to start in less than a week, I can't help thinking what will happen in this new (academic) year. The assignments' stress will certainly be there, along with the relationship with friends' problem; what's more, all the bgr problems will be following without a doubt.

I find myself mentally exhausted.

I think I'm not the only one, just that no one's showing it.

I'm not sure how much longer I can hold it in; I'm not sure how much more until I reach my limit; I'm not sure when I break down if I did; I'm not sure what I will do when that happened.

I always tell people not to think too much, because in the end the only one to suffer is yourself. I'm sorry to whoever I said that to, because I can't even take my own advice so what rights did I have to lecture you?

I can keep on giving pretty advices to other people, but there's no point if I cannot folow my own advice.

I want to be carefree, maybe I look the part to some people but my heart has always been heavy.