Feels kind of useless in many ways.

Feels as if I'm wasting my life away as of how I've been leading it until now.

Thinking back, what accomplishments can I name for myself? How many times is it that I can truefully claims I had put in my everything to do something?

There were none.

I just know how to watch anime, read manga and do last minute work with the intend to pass only. I have no talent to call my own.

With that, I also feel as if the future is dark and gloomy

Sometimes I really need to wonder.

I know I shouldn't always sleep so late and so little, yet I does it anyway, then fall asleep in school T.T

I also wonder about the part of myself where I started to watch shows instead of finishing up my assignments when due date draws nearer.

Haiz.

Anyway, today (refering to Friday, 27th) went Bugis Art Friend with Le En after school to take a look at the art supplies we're suppose to buy for Digital Matte Painting. Things to buy: 10 diff brushes, 9 different tube of Daler Rowney brand water colour paint, A3 water colour paper.

The paint alone is almost 30$, the water colour paper is around 12$, one brush is like 3-4$.

The amount of money needed to be spend for this lesson is making my heart bleed T.T

Since it was on the way, went Kino after that too (:

And since there is no manga I wanted to buy, went to take a look at storybooks (:

One of them caught my eyes, so I flipped over read the summary and bought it.

After all, the starting of the summary goes like this:

"Geralt de Rivia is a witcher.
A cunning sorcerer. A merciless assassin.
And a cold-blooded killer."

Do I need any other reason to buy the book?

Nah :P

Woke up at 10am today (wednesday) since morning classes are cancelled, planned to go GEMs but in the end never since I'm lazy.

Slpt only 6 hours so obviously it's not enough T.T

Since I'm posting now (OMG 2.40am) and have to wake up at 7am, which means I will only have about 4 hours of sleep? Let me just die.

Spent a few hour drawing, stupid art class every thursday.

Tried various texture for the walls in my 3D scene proj, but somehow it all look pretty fake, and I'm suppose to create a photo-realistic scene =.=

Is there anyone who can save me? Better yet, help me do a distinction-grade proj ;p

Mon: Went Kino after school because my mother wanted to buy something there and I have the card and it's 20% sales for card holder. Bought 4 manga, all new volumes to series I have been collecting for years (:

Today:

Something horrible happened, finally happened. For the first time in many many countless years of schooling, I woke up way too late and was late for class by 15 minutes. ::Scream in horror::

The 2nd alarm clock was ringing for dunno-how-long before I finally heard it, the first alarm rang finish without me even realizing. Too much late nights must have gotten to me...

Tuesday as usual is the most boring and longest day of the week, especially with a 3 and 1/2 hour lesson - in which today I was surrounded by crazy classmates, on my left was the Maya-crazed one ::coughleencough::, on my right was a sleep deprive-crazed one who was talking to himself nonstop ::coughrixcough:: - and there's also Japanese Language straight after that.

Only a handful of people came, since most have MST and probably didn't bother to stay until 5.30.

The Japanese test from last term came back, did better than expected (which was a fail). This year the test was tough so I made a lot of mistakes and only gotten a 72 ):

This typical day is naturally the day that I dreaded the most everytime. The last day of hols, the ending of free time, the day before torture school begins again. It always comes quicker than expected and in a blink of the eyes. ::Cries::

Past 2 days I went back to emo. This time is valid reason. I'm such a failure.

GEMs assignment was due on 20th June, Fri. And I woke up on Saturday morning suddenly remembering it, but it's already way too late. Since the assignment is on BB and do online after accessing it, now that the due date is over, the assignment folder is empty once again with me not even having the chance to have a single look at it.

Forgetting about an assignment totally, I don't know who could manage that kind of idiocy, except me.

The other assignments aren't having much progress either, even though I did not forget, but my laziness made me procrastinate again and again. Sometimes I really can't stand myself, yet I don't have enough will power to change myself and allow tragedy (last minute burn midnight oil and rushing assignments) to repeat everytime.

Feel as if very long never update already...

Hols are ending and I've discovered (not very surprised) that almost no work had been accomplished in the 3 week long hols :(

Especially these few days, all passing by in a blink, with my worst habit acting up - rewatching super old anime that I normally wouldn't think of when something is due soon (exams, proj etc).

Seriously, I never feel like watching them at all, until when I'm suppose to rush other things I will suddenly remember some series and dig it out to watch it, and won't stop until I finished it again.

Besides that, I also discovered a site where I can read novels online, not just any novels but include those novels that were made into anime (Trinity Blood, Kyo Kara Maou, Shounen Onmyouji, Saiunkoku Monogatari). And I've wanted to read these manga for a long time already, the only reason I didn't was because I could bring myself to buy them.

BUT now is the worst time for me to be rewatching old anime and reading so many novels!!!!

I wonder if I will be able to finish all my work on time...

Sometimes I really hate myself =.=

Guess I have to do the TAG sooner or later.

Was TAGGED by Feiwen...

Rules & regulation of this quiz:

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves with answers.

B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

Q: If your Lover betrayed you, what would your reaction be?
A: Break up, probably.

Q: If you can have a Dream to come true, what would it be?
A: Successfully diet, at my ideal weight and not be fat at all in any parts of my body.

Q: What will your dream wedding to be like?
A: Something simple but sweet, with the people who matters attending.

Q: Are you confused of what lies ahead of you?
A: The future is one dark and gloomy path...

Q: What's your ideal lover like?
A: Someone who, I can be sure, loves me for who I am and I can trust with any kind of secrets.

Q: Which is more blessed , loving someone or being loved by someone?
A: It depends. Although it's said that loving someone cause more pain for oneself.

Q: Do you love your life currently?
A: It's not that bad, but not really the way I wanted my life to be.

Q: If the person you secretly liked is already attached , what would you do?
A: Sneak glances to appreciate his looks and hope to find someone better sometime in the near future.

Q: Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
A: Many things. Minor ones include often feeling left out/cut off from a lot of things.

Q: Is being tagged fun?
A: If one enjoy wasting time, yea.

Q: How do you see yourself in ten years time?
A:
When I'm feeling optimistic: Having a job that I don't hate and pay enough for me to live comfortably, meeting up with friends when I'm free and perhaps having a boyfriend.

When I'm feeling pessimistic: Stuck in a dull job I hate that pays barely enough and drifted apart with all my friends, having no life aside from working everyday and watching TV after work.

Q: Who are currently most important people to you?
A: The usuals, family, friends and several objects with sentimental value (there're not people, but the important-ness is same, if not more)

Q: What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
A: A person with too much time.

Q: Would you rather to be a single & rich or married but poor?
A: Depends on my age, before 30 - single n rich, after 30 - married and avg income :P

Q: What's the first thing you do every morning?
A: Check the time and decides to continue sleeping or wake up

Q: Would you give all in a relationship?
A: All my love, maybe (depends if the person is worth it or not). All my life, no.

Q: If you fall in love with two person simultaneously, who would you pick?
A: The more shuai one? Ok, I was kidding. The one who is willing to spend more time with me and understand my feelings, not just imposing his on me.

Q: Do you have a pet?
A: A huge Terapin.

Q: Are you different at home/in private from what your friends know you from?
A: More quiet at home since most of the time there's no one to talk to and I dont talk to myself, much.

People I am going to tag:

NONE

I am a kind soul who will not ask someone to waste their time doing this =.=

Very long never update le haha.

But is got reason de (:

Nothing happened on Mon and Tues, while on Wed I went Sim Lim and bought a new 4GB MP4. After that, on both thurs and fri (today) I was working!

Well, compare to most people, working for only 2 days probably seem very little and insignificant but it's still work, I'm still earning money haha.

The work itself was actually quite boring, since it's at Suntec and most people go there for the sake of the IT Show (I want go too T.T) there weren't much people at the place where I was.

Although there was not much work to be done, staying at the same place for 12 hours a day is still a challenge, I assure you. But now that it's over, I will anticipate my pay :D

And I haven't found out whether Father's Day is this Sunday or next Sunday yet...

7 of us went her hse to give her her birthday gift today. Was treated to Pizza (:

Have a super fun and ENJOYING time watching her reaction as she opened her gifts (shall not mention what some of them are to save your face, but know tt it's super embarrassing de)

After that gave Xiuqi her presents too, seeing that her birthday is coming soon too. BUT I'm still not very clear on the exact date. Sorry :'(

It's the others' fault, I swear, Chibi!

Jue Lei strongly believed it's on the 21st, according to Jac's belief, it's on the 10th and Yilin thinks it's on the 11th. =="

Anyway had a super fun time with the gals today (: Especially since after having nth to do, then going out to buy wine to go with some silly games. We finished off 5 bottles altogether (1 big one, 3 medium one and one small one)

A few of the faces got so red! Hahahahaha (Not me hehe)

Stayed at Jac's hse from almost 2 to 7 plus. It was a fun day :D

Injured the area between my big toe and second toe (right foot) just before I left for school in the morning. Lots of blood. Ouch.

Extra lesson on dollying, tracking and crane by Jeanine and Adrian, lots of ppl were there. Le En and I left when it's time to dismantle the crane LOL but we helped set it up so it should be ok, right? hahas

After that went to 3rd lvl where Fei Wen and some freshies are and got my hand on his psp again HEHEHEHE

Went to watch Narnia, Prince Caspian at Cineleisure after that. At first thought could watch for $6, but found out it's only for movie before 6pm and we're watching at 6.40. Zzzzzzzzzzz $10.50 flew away just like that.

But it was super nice! The actor for Peter, the High King grew up and look more matured now compare to the first movie and he got a lot more SHUAI. He is sooooooooo good looking :D I think Le En and Fei Wen got tired of keep on hearing me say it from before the movie until we're on our way home.

Although Narnia was great, like I expected, with lots of good and majestic Visual Effects, as well as amazing sound track, I was still a little disappointed at a few scenes in the book which didn't made it into the film.

But it's still a lot better compare to Harry Potter where they cut off A LOT of good scenes.

The next Narnia movie, The Voyage of the Dawn Treader probably will only be out in another 2/3 years, but it's ok, because you know what???!!! NO MORE PETER!

T.T (cry 3 days and 3 nights)

Caspain, Edmund and Lucy fans will still continue to be happy though... Haiz. So unfair.

Happy Birthday Jac! lol

Didn't go out today afterall... And it seem like I won't be watching Narnia anytime soon T.T

I can only blame myself for leaving assignment until last minute bah... Only 4 more days to do it before it's due, hope I can finish.

Stayed at home all day today, somehow I managed to not even step out of the house at all. Although I went back to sch on mon and out to orchard ytd, I still have the feeling of being cut off from the rest of the world.

Once, I didn't mind this feeling - because I have myself and my computer, and other people didn't matter. Then, slowly and unknowingly, there was me, and there were them; and I started to yearn to be a part of them.

But I failed, I didn't manage to fit in; while everyone else laughed and played, smile and joke, all I could do was simply to watch.

And the circle continues, even after years, no matter where I am the world seems to be divided into 2 - there is me, and then there is them.

Went out today, went to school yesterday, going out again tmr LOL I wonder when I'll get one whole day at home to concentrate on my assignment which is going to due this coming monday...

I spent a lot of money today (heart pain) but it can't be help bah. Saw a really nice necklace at Perlini Silver and a pendant I quite like, so at the encouragement of my friends (whether it's just them happy seeing me spent $ or not) I bought both items for $21.

Not to mention all the other stuffs and food I bought, since I ate both lunch and dinner out it's not a small sum. I think I spent around $80plus today? O.O I'm already so broke yet I don't know the meaning of control. Haiz.

And, this month so many movies to watch! How???

Accuracy of Death, Narnia Prince Caspian, KungFu Panda, the new Indiana Jones movie...

Amount of money to be spent: Incalculable

Die! =.=;

What Katherine Lee Means

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

Well, some of it felt true while some are the complete opposite.

If you know me I guess it's pretty obvious lol :)