Hmm, really dunno what to think of many things, or if I should think about them or not. Some things might be nothing at all, yet the more I think about it, the more I would feel that it is not nothing at all.

However, no matter how much I think, in the end, everything is just my thoughts and thoughts could be a powerful thing... Because I could never bring up the courage to simply ask, I guess I often didn't think enough about certain things and overthinking some.

And it causes paranoia... The more I think, the more my thoughts seem to go towards the negative side and hence, emo.

Probably most of the bad things is just me thinking too much, at least I hope it is. Since all I could ever do was to think of the worse case senario. Perhaps I'm just someone with a very insecure sense of feeling.

Whenever something goes well, I will wonder, how long will it take before it falls apart? Whenever something goes wrong, I will just wonder, maybe I deserve all of that...
And when something went completely wrong, I will also think, it's probably my own fault.

It's the same with people I meet. I just can't help but always think, what do they really think of me behind my backs even as we talk and joke around cheerfully. And that will leave me feeling hollow for the rest of the day.

Somethings aren't meant to be said, yet somethings will never be solved unless you say them out. Guess the world works in a complicated manner...