Well, my msn might be having some trouble coughcough

I don't seem to receive offline messages when I'm appearing offline? It's only the next day after I switch on my com again that offline messages pop out, listed at a time which I know that I was appearing offline, not actually offline, yet I don't receive them anyway.

That said, I will explain that after 1 day, I feel its too late to reply thus I don't, but I do see them. Okaesssss

Haha.

I was really miserable when I was typing the previous post, half of which was probably cuz of my sickness. It was really horrible to be sick ):

And its still true that when I stare at msn contacts, 90% of the time, people I want to see online is never there and there's a futhur 75% probabilities nowadays that even if I do spot some of them, we don't really get to chat. I say a hi and get a couple of replies before it dies down - busy people they all are.

Yea. It seems that everyone else except me is pretty busy. They seem to be doing well out there on something, spending their youth and time meaningfully, working towards a goal/a better future.

Everyone else but me. They're all moving on with their life.

Ahh well, but still, I thank the encouraging messages on msn that I still got, letting me know I still get noticed even though I'm holed up in my own little world doing nothing currently.

I sleep and eat, eat and slp, use the com and grow fat.

My father says I'll be getting left behind by my friends, who are all working their way towards something in life, whatever it is, unlike me who does nothing but rot at home; I'll be soon left behind by them and forgotten, and will have no more space in their life anymore.

I wonder if that is true...

And I do want a goal, a routine, something to work towards for. But I haven't found "IT" yet, whatever "IT" is.