Monday, January 31, 2011
Die lah...
The moment has come again... In less than 24 hours I will have to make The Decision...
What decision? It's The Decision that will decide my fate loh. No, not my fate, just the rest of my whole life =.=
I postponed a year, and thought I will have my answer by now. But the result is "no". In fact, I think I am even more confuse than I am a year ago.
I have a diploma in Digital Media, but when I stare at it I will go like "what good will this do me?" for all that I learn about it, if you ask me go direct/produce a film or make a video/cg effect right now I die on the spot for you to see loh...
But what else can I do leh... Thinkthinkthink, no matter how long I think I can come up with nothing =="
But still time will not wait, must make decision soon.
1) Continue digital media area stuff, which is like wasting my life and time and money cause I have already determine after 3 year in SP that I have neither talent nor passion in this subject
2) Choose something that got big market, sure can find job course to study, which is like killing myself with boredom. Forcing myself day after day to focus on stuffs that I 'have to do' instead of 'want to do'.
3) Find a subj I interested in and study it regardless of job market, cause if I can enjoy it, who cares?
1 is quite unlikely, 2 is not looking very appealing, 3 is so far what I wanna do but have no bloody clue of. I mean, if I can find what I interested in then is thank heaven lah... BUT, 20 years past, still haven't, what chance is it that I will in less than 24 hour?
So 2 seem to be the way to go. But I just can't imagine me doing something I don't like day after day until the day I retire, which is like still got 40+ years to go? I think less than halfway I will die. That, or go crazy...
But I can't go jobless, so finding something with huge job market should be safest route right?
Haiz...
How I wish, someone will drop from the sky and enlighten me, and help me 脱离苦海 lol
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